Journal Entry #1: Pregnancy and Going Home.

Dear Diary,

CHICK-FIL-A IS CALLING MY NAME. This is my last full week in Europe for this season. I'm about about 2 weeks away from my third trimester (thank God) and I have to get home to meet with American doctors who will deliver little one and overall prepare for baby girl's arrival in like 3 months. If I were home from the jump, I would've started the day we found out I was pregnant. O_O. So, it's crunch time for me to say the least. My dad just got here to fly back home with me next week and that means everything. I got a dad hug AND I'll get help with my carry-on. Come on God! I'm milking everything that comes with this belly. Is that a seated scooter 0_0?

My need to nest is getting real and while I'm happy to be getting back, settled in, and to hug my mama, I'm gonna miss Steve soooo much. He's my absolute favorite person to be around, especially during pregnancy. Maybe it's a hormonal thing but he smells soooo good to me right now and I just wanna be under him and literally in his neck 100% of the time. Lol. He's been incredibly patient, gentle and supportive. My actual rock during this whole experience. There's no love like this one.

BUT...the season must continue and he has a job to do. If all goes as anticipated, he'll be out here until late May/June. She's due at the end of June/early July. -_-.

DO YOU KNOW HOW TOUGH IT IS TO PLAN A SHOWER, MATERNITY SHOOT AND OTHER USUALLY SCHEDULED THINGS? Lol. I'm paranoid because like, I want him succeed and go all the way with his team but also I want to get things solidified and on the books. I'm an executive admin at heart so penciling things in but not getting them in ink is driving me a little insane. Lol. I mean it's apart of the life though so, I'm just happy he should be scheduled to be home for delivery; providing she comes at her estimated time. I'll take that as a blessing and call it a day.

Anyway...being pregnant out here from conception all the way up until now, my first and second trimesters, has been an experience. I've been blessed to have a healthy and relatively easy pregnancy so far. I love my OB team and how attentive they are to the details. Everything is in Polish but they're so kind. I'm a little over the vaginal checks but at least I'm no longer tense during OB appointments. I'm def. prepared to have my stuff all out for delivery at this point. Lol. I love how I get all my appointments and ultrasounds documented with both paperwork AND PHOTOS. Apparently that's not the case in the States? I'm not sure. First-timer. We've seen baby girl every single appointment and I love that for my little paranoid self. :)

I've missed home so much because being familiar with things and people feels comforting while something so new is happening to me. I'm really looking forward to seeing my community, family and easy grocery shopping. Lol. IYKYK.

Right now I'm just feeling all the feels. It's all I can do. On either side, I'm emotional, blessed and highly favored. :) Until my next entry... byeeeeeeeeeee.

-Rhema.